JSH: Big collapse on surrogate factoring

jstevh_at_msn.com
Date: 03/10/05 

Date: 10 Mar 2005 03:58:55 -0800

As far as I'm concerned I've just had a massive collapse in terms of
getting surrogate factoring working, with a recent result that
indicates you kind of need to know the factors of M ahead of time to
guarantee a factorization.

Yuck.

But it happens.

Part of the fun of problem solving is knowing that at the end of the
process you may just fail.

Ok, yeah, who am I kidding?

Total failure is awful. It hurts in the gut, and you feel like just
crawling into a hole...for a while.

And then the feeling goes away.

I learned that years ago when I had FLT "Proofs" that I'd championed
for months, only to finally accept that the arguments were flawed and
what I had were not proofs.

I felt terrible. I felt awful. I berated myself for daring to presume
to have solved the great problem.

And then the bad feelings went away and I felt fine.

In life we don't get to solve all the problems in front of us. If
anybody did, then they wouldn't die, or their family members wouldn't
die, or even their favorite dog wouldn't die.

But we all die.

I'll try my best while I'm here to solve a few problems before I keel
over, and along the way I'm sure I'll have more spectacular failures,
as though I already have some behind me, there's no reason given my
pattern to think there aren't more ahead.

Like I feel kind of bad now about surrogate factoring, but you know?

I'm already feeling a little better...

James Harris

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