Re: Diary of a Tumor

The following is my update about the biopsy:


My brother and mother accompanied me to the hospital for nasopharyngeal
biopsy under general anesthesia on Friday, October 14 around 9 AM.
I told the anesthesiologist that I would like to stay wake at the procedure
if possible. She said she would discuss it with Dr. Dolan. Olga, a
compassionate Puerto-Rican nurse got pleased to read in paperwork that I am
Christian, took my hand and whispered in my ear a prayer that I'll be OK,
I'll be cured, the doctor is good doctor and all my worries will be gone by
the
help of Jesus. I felt touched by her prayer; I had had a feeling that
something very wrong is happening to me for a long time; A feeling of
unanswered "Why me?" and being unjustly targeted and doomed.
Finally came Dr. Dolan, passed 11AM. The anesthesiologist, a Polish girl
with such funny accent as mine, injected me, as she said, something for
relaxation.
.... I opened my eyes. Another nurse was sitting next to me. "Do you feel any
pain?", she asked. "Yes, in my throat", I answered. She immediately injected
morphine. "You don't remember anything?", she asked.
The clock was showing around 1PM. I was told the surgery was successfully
completed. It's like a "time hole" in your life; like being "abducted by
aliens". Scary and comfortable and fun: Close and open your eyes - the
surgery is done. Although they were providing an excellent care, I left
within an hour as I felt fair and my sister and parents were waiting to take
me home. The results they said will be available in a week or so; I made an
appointment with the doctor for Wednesday and bought the prescription for
pain before leaving. When I was resting in my parents' apartment, a friend
of our family made a surprise visit. She told me and my parents not to be
depressed, not to be afraid as whatever it is it will go away. "God is with
you! You will see that it was not such serious thing as you thought. It's
all in your mind. There is nothing serious in your nose", she told me. I
reminded her that it is unfortunately what doctors/tests/symptoms showed for
1,5 months, it's not "in my mind". I wish it were. Let's say the CAT SCAN
results were somehow wrong and it is not nasopharyngeal carcinoma, then what
about swellings on my neck? "I think they became smaller. Whatever it is,
it is not serious. God is with you!" Then she rehearsed psalm 27 for me. I
was surprised and encouraged by her words, as while being very close friend
of my sister and parents, for some reason she was not friendly and most of
the time would misinterpret my points before. It affected on me more than
morphine; I felt that my breath is excellent; no pain in throat; no
coming-and-going feeling in ears; felt that the swelling on the neck is
becoming smaller; felt in a very good mood. . Anyone tried or thought to use
hypnoses in treating tumors? All day I was with great hope and feeling
confident..
It was only at night that I felt:
1. Very soar throat.
2. Pain when swallowing.
3. Mild pain in neck nodes.
4. Something is indeed changed in neck's tumor: I think it became less
thick???
5. Coming and going feeling in ears.
6. No, this is not joke at all.

Today is fourth consecutive day after the biopsy; still have the symptoms
and plus had high temperature yesterday night and nose feel a little stuffy
all the time.



--
Regards,
Araik Margarian.
http://journals.aol.com/aramargar1/MyAmericanDream/





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