Re: Hey Iceman
- From: alan@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Alan)
- Date: Thu, 5 May 2005 10:12 +0100 (BST)
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alan@xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (Alan) wrote:
> So you can tell me how wrong I am, or how crazy I am, or
that I am being
> selfish, but somehow I just don't see it that way, because
the fact remains
> that we both have a terminal disease, that is going to
kill us, and I have
> seen so many people just stop posting over the years in
this newsgroup, or
> tell us how they live in some tiny flat doing silly things
as they become
> encephalitic, with their family staying at a safe distance
because they are
> secretly scared of catching that same disease, and let's
also face the
> reality is that despite everybody doing their best to
convince people
> otherwise they still insist that it is an "addicts
disease".
And you can try telling me that isn't true either, but the
fact is that each and every one of us in posting to this
hepatitis newsgroup is doing so because the other people in
the world don't understand us, and what we are going
through.
They kind of regard you as "diseased" and give you a wide
berth if they do know what is wrong with you, and if they
don't, then they don't understand why you don't want to go
down the pub with them, or why sometimes certain foods upset
you, or sometimes you just feel tired and want to spend the
day asleep, or sometimes you feel "grouchy", or "down", or
sad because somebody else you only know from a newsgroup has
disappeared and you just know that you will never hear from
them again like that damn Yardweed. Or why you spend two
hours chatting on the phone with somebody on the far side of
the world, and then accuse you of doing things you would
never do with somebody else's wife.
And right now I guess I am feeling sorry for myself, because
I am crying, but you can bet it won't last long, because I
am not going to waste what is left of my life feeling sorry
for myself, and if she doesn't want to come with me then I
am damn well going to go alone, while I am still able.
Do you get it now Iceman?
Now I'm going to continue cleaning up this house so that I
can put it on the market, and she can choose to do what she
likes, because I don't want anybody with me who doesn't
really want to be there, and as I once told her, if I was
making my wife unhappy, then the only way I could possibly
show her I truly loved her would be by buying her a ticket
to where she wants to go and waiting to see if she came
back, which I did one time, and she did come back, but then
most men aren't like me, they think they can own their wife,
but that just makes them selfish.
Alan
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