Re: Requesting the power of positive thinking

On Aug 25, 4:38 pm, "Bam" <dearcounse...@xxxxxxxxxxx> wrote:
I'm a control nut. Never denied it. It's a lot less so in some areas in my
life, but not all.

Seven years ago, I received an official diagnosis of MS. Symptoms were
annoying, sometimes a tad scary but went away after a month or two and the
rest of the year I stayed safely esconced in the land of DeNial.

This summer I've had to accept that it's not going to go away on its
own..... the MS that is. I've been struggling for 4-5 months with "mild"
symptoms (eyes that feel like I can't open, swallowing difficulties,
numbness and paresthesias in all sorts of odd places), but in the last month
I've been sidelined.... and frankly, I hate it. I'm scared. I'm miserable.

I can barely hold my head up. I'm sitting here now with one of those
travel pillows that wrap around your neck on so that I can read and type.
My equilibrium is very messed up. I list. I lean. I fall. I wanna cry but
don't want to upset my family by letting them know I'm scared. Thankfully,
my day job is at home so I can work although the number of mistakes I'm
making because I can't always see well are piling up. Thankfully, my sister
is my manager and she's helped cover some of my screw ups.

I hesitate to whine because so many people have such bigger problems but I
*NEED* to whine.....

I need a new neuro because my insurance has changed--- insurance only pays
for 1 and he can see me in December. So now I have to go out of network to
see someone mid September. Can't work 2 jobs cause I'm exhausted after
trying to do 8 hours.... need 2 jobs so I can support myself....and stress
makes the symptoms worse. Talk about a conundrum :-)

So this lengthy pity party is to ask those of you willing and believing in
such, to throw some good thoughts out to the Universe for me.... let this
equilibrium stuff please go away soon.... I can't drive. Hell, I can barely
make it WALKING to the mailbox..... my 50th birthday is in 9 days..... this
isn't exactly how I thought I'd be spending it.....

--
Bambi

Sending you all the positive energy I can gather right now! If I can
do anything for you, you only have to ask. -- Sandi

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