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Judity, you'll be able to keep track of this right? It's going to make a great medical thriller.... :)

Well, you must love the medical profession... not.

The urologist thinks I do, indeed, surely have MS. He says the problems I'm having urologically are very indicative of MS... here one day, not the next, no other explanation. He said MS wreaks havoc with the bladder.... oh goodie, at least it'll be exciting, right?

(He said to me that he's very impressed with my attitude and outlook and I told him once the sense of humor leaves, I'm done, there will not be enough strength to come back, so I have no choice but to smile, grin, bear it, and say WTF!)

He gave me some meds to hopefully handle the immediate issues, another infection, etc. Told me he would definitely take my films and go to another neurologist because I now have one that says yes, one that says he doesn't think so, and the third whilst still not necessarily any more right than either of the first two, would at least give me that much more information.

Tonight I have a fever, my kidney hurts, I want to cry. I want to just lay in the bed and say - OK, GOD... you win. For 12 years, I've fought to get my world right and for 12 f*ing years you've been throwing road block after road block and frankly, I'm just tired of dodging the road blocks......

Fear not.... it's just a momentary pity party and about as much anger as I do..... but damn, give a sister a break, will ya?
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